Eventually, we sit down GC and tell him the news. Boy, that was awkward! And it goes down in a way where all 4 of us are in the room at the same time. So there was no real escape for anyone.
PJ and AD break the news as gently as they can but the whole time, I’m being quiet and to myself, trying to not get involved. While it’s all happening, everyone is taking occasional glances at me, as if expecting me to say something. I’m staring into middle space and biting my nails at this point! 😯
But here’s why this thing was so stressful for me: I had no problems with any of my roommates! So this was really an issue between the other three. I wanted to be Switzerland! But unfortunately, that’s not how things played out for me. My problem was that I had to take a side in this scenario. Why? Well, there are two ways this could have played out for me:
- I take one of the sides (which would be PJ’s side) and have the other side dislike me.
- I take no sides and have them both question my integrity.
I originally wanted to go with option #2 but the longer I thought about it, the more I thought that if I did it would not work out in my favor in the long run. If I had decided to not say a word and not get involved, PJ and AD would look at me very differently. They would wonder if I would stand up with them in the future. GC would wonder why I didn’t make a remark, leaving me to look unconcerned with his dilemma. That’s a no-go for me on both sides! 😦
What also made me not go with option #2 is the things that PJ and AD told me before this conversation happened. PJ had told me that he wanted (expected really) for me to take his side. AD told me that if I stood up with them, it makes their argument stronger and it doesn’t make it look like the two of them are attacking GC. So of course, all of this is swirling and bouncing around inside my head as this conversation is taking place with GC.
So before it was too late, I went with option #1 . I took PJ and AD’s side and just agreed with them. Now I spun it where I sorta acted as a middleman but still stood on the “attacking” side. I really didn’t want to jeopardize the bond I had formed with two guys I’d be continuing to live with after GC moved out. That would be just TOO awkward for me. Plus, if I was going to take a side, let it be the one where I have the most support.
To be frank, no one left that conversation feeling good. Especially me and GC. I was forced to do something I really didn’t want to do and GC had been abandoned. It just sucked for lack of better words. GC stopped talking with us after that.
What kills me though, is that days after the conversation happened, PJ and AD went back to normal as if nothing ever happened! Like, maybe I’m just super sensitive, but I couldn’t understand how they could just pretend like GC wasn’t clearly heartbroken every time they saw him. I tried to reach out to GC but he didn’t really want to talk. All I could get was a mere “Hi.”
Then, eventually, the semester ended and were all went home to our hometowns for the holidays. There was A LOT that happened between us leaving and us coming back for the Spring semester. But basically, it boiled down to me trying to console GC and really squash the remaining confusion between everyone. Luckily, it was successful.
When we all came back, something strange happened. It was like the conversation never occurred. Everyone (even GC) was getting along and happy and, well, compatible again! And now, I’m left in a state of confusion, and remorse for what is to come. It only makes me wonder what could’ve been if we had worked it out more before it came to what it did.
Personally, I’m going to miss GC. He might have done some things that were annoying from time to time but I will really miss having him around all the time. I don’t know about PJ and AD, but I will miss him. It’s even more disheartening for me now because GC and I are actually getting closer than we were before the conversation happened. So when he leaves, it will hurt more than it originally would have.
Yeah, these moments happen in life. Sometimes you gotta make a tough choice. And while I look forward to the new roommate (who I like just as much as AD and PJ), it doesn’t make GC’s leave any less difficult to deal with.
But there you have it guys. Quite a long story for you, I know. But I just wanted to come and get that one off of my chest. I do hope that maybe you got something out of that. Maybe you could learn from my experience. But whatever the case, thank you for reading. 🙂
Well, until next time, cheers.
Have you had to make a tough choice before? What would you have done if you were me? Leave all of your thoughts below!